Why?
Strep throat. 40 antibiotic pills to swallow over ten days. Ugh
Bad dreams. People dying in them. Ugh
Lack of exercise and blancmange thighs. Ugh
Lack of drive and feeling a tad sorry for myself. Ugh
The realties of life seem to be hitting hard this week (and most of the weeks prior). The optimist in me just isn't appearing as often as I would like.
Now I could just write this in a notebook beside the bed. I could be exercising right now. Instead I am sharing with the world. Having a moan.
Maybe I need to do a bit more of this:
I have always thought singing helps me temporally forget other stuff that is normally rolling around in my brain.
For me it's singing. Mostly around myself and girls. But sometimes the public in the odd restroom or supermarket aisle.
Mark has a lovely voice but doesn't sing to release stress. He runs and sweats his troubles away.
I wish I could catch that bug. Walking the dog (or actually being dragged by the dog) does make me feel better because our dog is so young and excitable that its' damn near a run!!!!!
Wind on your face. Rain on the glasses LOL. Fresh, cool nip in the winter air.
I do like that.
I think I've got myself in a rut. A mid winter rut.
Sharing this stuff actually helps. I know that when I get into a rut I need help myself get motivated again. Announcing stuff into cyberspace seems to help, well, normally.
It worked with many of my other publicly announced issues. I told everyone out there I have a brain tumour and because of that I felt I needed to fight it even more, because I had shared my secret. Does that make sense to you?? Or just me???
So that's what I do now.
I already feel a little brighter. Those AA group strategies have got it right.
Hi I'm Jaz......................I have a brain tumour..........................I have mid winter rut thingy too................................................................................................................................................................................................................... I write about all of it!!
Jaz x
Check the spring flowers! They always help. We look forward to the singing tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteSorry Jaz I haven't deserted but I've been travelling and temporarily absent from Blogland. I hope that you are now feeling a little less blue and blah and a little more pink and perky. There is nothing like a winter for making one feel down in the dumps. There is some truth in the saying that a trouble shared is a trouble halved well at least I certainly found that writing about cancer helped. Keep smiling, keep singing, keep walking the dog and, above all, keep writing and sharing and you'll know that we are all out here routing for you. After all, Jaz, you are deep down one of the world's optimists.
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