In two days time, on Sunday, it will have been a whole year since I was told I had a tumour in my head.
Yep. It truly rocked my world.
It also rocked the world of my family.
The day after we found out this information was my hubs birthday. A bittersweet one it was too. Which means we are once again celebrating his birthday this coming weekend. Thankfully with a different attitude.
Yes we are still frightened on a daily basis about what the future will bring, but we also truly appreciate the uncertainty that LIFE is. Shoving the fear to the back of the cupboard is not easy but I know we will go crazy if we don't ignore it sometimes. We hope that we will get some good news in the coming months that will allow some 'breathe easy' time. It may happen. We've just gotta believe and we are allowed to hope.
The person who made this little guy has no idea that he helped my non functioning hand return to full use during the rehab weeks. He sits beside my bed and reminds me of success, but also the care involved in making and sending. Thank you :-)
The cups of tea from an almost, but lovely stranger, now considered a dear friend.
I have many things to be thankful for over this year. I have thanked many people directly and indirectly. Some through this blog, texting, letter writing, phone-calls and other means. I also misplaced some addresses when people sent me lovely things and I'm very sorry about that. I will use the excuse that I was in hospital and rehab and not as organised or clear headed as normal. I also remember Mark saying he had thanked some blog followers for their cards and gifts on my behalf. I also have Mark to thank, as at a time when he was terrified he would lose his wife and mother of his children. He kept going and still does.
Healing smells from another lovely person :-)
To all of you. Thank you so much.
You have made this year richer.
What could be my worst year, may possibly be the richest.
I really know who cares for me and whom I care about in return. Some of you just left a few words on this blog. It was more than enough. The human spirit really is enriched and lifted by others' words. How bloody amazing.
What a bloody amazing year.
Amid the crap. I remember lots of love.
This weekend we will CELEBRATE my hubs birthday, enjoy our children and appreciate what it REALLY means to be alive.