Wednesday, January 19, 2011

My next mountain.

Well. I said I'd update you when I heard..........and I have.

Sitting on the floor of the local library I received 'the call' from Auckland Public Hospital. It's a good thing I was already on the floor.

I'm having brain surgery on Monday.

Yep this, Monday 24th January. Giving me only five days notice to get my head around it. (and my family's!!). Sunday afternoon I'm in for the pre-op tests (poking and prodding that's necessary). AND I'm first on the list for Monday's surgeries, which I think is probably a blessing for us all.

If this is the first you have read of this, my previous posts are here and here

I've been bumped up the list due to some recent symptoms.

So here I am telling the world that I have a brain mass and it's now to be removed.

Yesterday I cried. Ran outside for air. Cried. More air. But I slept soundly.

Today I feel calm and almost ready. I'm really scared.........but a little relieved. I'm thinking, hoping, knowing that this is the end of my first leg of my current personal journey. Monday marks the start of the next. A mountain for me to conquer.

Mountains aren't necessarily a negative thing. They are an awesome feature of nature and it's very satisfying and rewarding to climb them. Oh and the view is normally pretty amazing from the top.

I have an excellent surgeon. One of the best. If I knew him better this is the letter I'd write to him today.


Dear Andrew Law,
I'm grateful to be meeting you again. I wish it wasn't necessary. I wish it was just for a coffee.

I hope you have a great weekend with your family and a very refreshing sleep on Sunday. (I'm not sure mine will be so).

Have a really good coffee on Monday morning. But only one, as I want those skilled hands as steady as possible.

I know you're in for a treat. I've got a pretty interesting brain in here. I realise my case is intriguing for you, but not too much partying on the operating theatre until I'm back together again please!!

I can't wait to shake your hand later that day. You're going to be great!

kind regards

Jaz

xx



19 comments:

  1. Thanks for the update. You are mega brave and will be covered in prayer from me.
    Praying for peace of mind as you step one foot in front of the other. For more peace for those around you and love you, to support you, encourage you and lift you up every step of the way.
    For skill and wisdom of those surgeons and hospital staff.
    For the best result possible, a miracle, whatever it takes to bring you back to optimum health.
    If I've missed anything you want me to add just holla ;)
    xoxo

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  2. oh wow, all the best for your surgery.
    I'll be praying for you too, and for your family and friends and your surgeon.
    I hope it is very successful and you recover quickly.
    Also praying for peace for you over the next few days.

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  3. Hey Jaz
    You are one amazing woman. I have just read back on the original posts. What positivity and strength you've shown in this situation. I will also be praying for you and your family.

    Especially that you can as much as possible just have a normal few days together leading up to Monday.

    You are an inspiration :-)

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  4. Praying for you also - what an inspiration, have just read your whole story, I doubt I'd be able to cope as calmly as you have.

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  5. We will be with you soon sweetie =)

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  6. I've just read your story through this post and the other 2. You are so brave and I just want to say I'm thinking of you and hoping that everything goes well on Monday and in the future for you.
    Hugs.

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  7. Hello there you.
    As I have always said," Cross each bridge as you come to it." I will be thinking of you and sending positive vibes. Give those girls a huge squeeze & most of all Mark.
    Love G

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  8. Jaz, you are an amazing, positive inspiration. You will be in my thoughts on Monday (and much of the time until then too).

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  9. Have been sent here from Widge. My heart leaps for you and am praying that the surgery goes well. I can understand how scary it is, it sounds like you are in excellent hands. xxx

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  10. Wow, I am in awe of you & your positivity & bravery. I guess when you're a muma it's natural instint & the power within. I wish you well, I'm sure you are in the best of hands..x

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  11. Hi - have come via Widge's blog. Will be praying for you.

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  12. Sounds like you're undertaking quite a journey! I just wanted to leave you a short note sending love and strength to you and your beautiful family. I am in awe of your positivity and honesty. Good luck with your future travels and I look forward to hearing about your road to recovery.

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  14. Hi Jaz, I too was directed to your blog via Widge's and your story has touched my heart. You are incredibly positive and I find that amazing when FEAR can be so all-consuming.
    My thoughts and prayers are joining with the many others who are lifting you and your family up over this time.

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  15. Oh my, I just came her after reading Widge's prayer request for you on her blog. You are so brave. Please know I will be praying for you and your family during this difficult and scary time!

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  16. Another coming in from Widge, this is my prayer for you:
    God - designer and creator of our amazing bodies would you release in Jaz all the healing ways our bodies are made to work. Would you guide the hands of the surgeon and give him and all the medical professionals wisdom. Would you make things less complicated than expected.
    Would you send your Presence to Jaz and her family to guard their hearts, protect them from fear and touch them gently with your peace.
    Bring people into their lives that will love them and support them.
    Heal, protect, guide and guard. Amen

    Jaz may your positivity and the love of friends and family see you through and may you conquer this mountain with courage and success. Miriam x

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  17. prayers from England. I hope you are recovering well after the surgery on Monday. God bless you and your family. I have read your other posts and I hope that your positivity, courage and strength shines through even in the darkest moments.

    God Bless. xx

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  18. Just popping by from Widgealicous to say that I'll be praying that the op will have gone well and that you're recovering well.

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